So it's been forever since i have updated this thing it feels like!! but wow My zac is going to home soon!! On monday the 14th ( tomorrow) it will be 9 weeks since i have seen him! We just skyped today for the first time in like a month so it was nice to see my handsome husband!! I can't wait to kiss his face!! He is my christmas present well the only thing i truely want.. You know the Mariah Carey song "All i want for christmas is you" well i always loved loved that song but it never had much meaning to me.. But now it means everything!! We hopefully will have a good couple of days together before he goes back out for a week or two! but he is also turning 30 the day after christmas!! Woo Wooo the big 30!!! oh i remember when i turned 30 really quite shocking!!! omg i never thought i would be this old!! But damn I am!!! And still no babies!! ohhh that hopefully will be our new years resolution to have a baby within this next year or so!!!but we will see how our lives go!! but i think i need to put up my xmas tree finally!! I just don't want to do it by myself and only i can see and enjoy it!! Oh well i need to get shoppin thats for sure!! not much done... was going to go this weekend but it has been to snowy for me to venture out!! but next week i will get more accoplished....Well just want to tell everyone family and friends how much i love them and how much they mean to me!! And I will try to keep up on my blog!!!

Ramona wanted to say Hi and we miss you!!! love you

It seems like i haven't updated this forever!! I have all this extra time now that it's just me at home you think i would have this Crazy amazing looking blog!! ha ha you all know me too well to know that I wouldn't even know how to get started on that im lucky my sister let me look on hers to figure this one out!! ANyways Im still missing Zac like crazy and it pretty much still sucks. It has ONLY been 3 weeks but feels like 3 months!! But he's not missing much here Except for HIs beautiful wife( haha yeah right) and his little creatures as he would call them.. HE said he is really home sick... And we are home sick for you to come home!!! I just wanted to just say again and again how lucky i am for all the blessings i have in my life.. Seriously it's crazy how lucky I am... Im not rich, thin or beautiful but i do have the most amazing people in my life who i would do anything in the world for... And you know what is sad???? I think that i have to be 110 lbs to be happy and loved and for people to like me... That is so insane im really trying so hard to believe that I am good enough and pretty enough for people to like me for me not by how much I weigh!!! I keep telling myself life is too short!!! Be thankful for everything and everyone you have!! most of all love yourself.. I think people forget sometimes how truely amazing they are and how strong they are! Its so crazy for me to look at someone who is AMAZING! and to hear her say she don't feel like She is ENOUGH!! I just wish she would know that she is Way Way more than enough and she is one of the most beautiful people inside and out i have ever met!!! I love you!! (u know who you are) but anyways i just kinda went off but i have had alot on my mind and just wanted to express how i have been feeling!! Well im gonna put some pic's up from my pumpkin I carved this halloween for my Love Mr. Zac! he means so much to me and absence does make the heart grow fonder thats for damn sure!!! I miss him more and more every second of everyday!! Anyways excuse the horrible carving job!! i did it free hand and it surely shows!! ha ha ha...

One Week ago yesterday since i have seen my Zac!! I have my good and bad days without him.. Not good cause he's gone but like "ok i can deal with this today i am strong" and then i have days when I break down and cry and just look at his pictures and just wish he was right here to be a dork with me... Well im blessed i have still been keeping busy!! My good friend Jen and her Wonderful Husband Invited me to dinner last night and It was so yummy!! Seriously so good!! And they got me to watch Vampire Diaries!! Which was so good!! im not a fan of Twilight and i thought it was going to be like that but this one is so Drama and Juicy I got sucked right into it!!! It;s not so PG like Twilight which i like cause im not really a PG kinda girl... But anyways that was a great monday night!! Then tonight i went to my sisters and we made these cute chocolate pretzels out of this mold and they turned out so freakin cute!! Well they are way cuter in person but we had a blast doing it even Griggs got in on the fun.. Him and Ramona were having fun eating the pretzels and frosting while me and my sister made the pretzels... And FYI they are not as easy as they look!! ohhhh nooo!! But they sure were fun!! my brother in law even got into it.. fun times!! LOve my family and friends so much!! I know i say it over and over again but it's just so true!! i don't know where I would be without the amazing people who surround and encourage me everyday!!

Well today is the 2nd whole day without Zac!! Wow it's hard but, i have the most amazing sister and my friend Jen who has been here for me to help me out and give me their shoulder to cry on!! I don't think they know how much that means to me...I Love you guys!! So I am so glad for technology because Zac and I are using Skype to communicate and it's amazing I can see and talk to him everyday!!It's like he is just upstairs and we are testing the thing out for the first time. Like we did last week... HaHaHa we had to see if it worked some how!!! It seriously feels like he has been gone for so long already... My one hope is he will be home for Christmas.. Which i know is probably not gonna happen but i can dream :) Well he is going to pick up lottery tickets and make us millionaire's so we don't have to worry about a little thing called MONEY!!!! But whatever money is evil anyways and LOVE is the most powerful thing ever!! And one thing that drives me crazy by the way is how some people keep telling us that we better "watch out this is how people get divorced" Whatever we are going to keep our relationship strong and beautiful like it always has been and always will be.... Well Mr. Zac if your reading this i love you with all my heart and miss you like crazy!!!

Well this is my shot at this Blog thing.. It only took me 3 hours to figure it out but that's ok. Just wanted to say that i am so blessed to have my handsome, caring and loving husband. He just left today for training and will be gone for about 6-8 weeks so I am already having a hard time with it and its been 6 hours. That's ok I know my family and God will get me through this time.. We have been together 5 years and have only been apart a week at the most so it's so hard when you have someone always by your side and then they are gone for awhile.. That saying is so true "you don't know what you got till it's gone." Or wait was that only a 80's love ballad song??? Either way it's so true.. But luckly he is only gone for at the most 2 months.. I have amazing family and friends (one in particular who she is the most kind person and i love her to death.) to have sleepovers with me and keep my mind off of it.. ANd i have our 2 fur babies who will help me out.. Well I love you Zac and I am so proud of you! The pic im gonna post is today when i was saying good bye to him i was a mess so excuse the face :)